Chapter 3 I Suffer From Severe Selective Mutism
Low Expectation
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[Low Expectation]
Life is pain. At least for me, my life has been so and will be so.
If so, how shold I manage to live such a painful life?
I guess the answer is to have low expectations. I have no hope for anything good in my life. I will suffer from misfortune throughout my life. My mother and teacher will not help me. I have no potential.
By thinking this way, I can endure pains in my life, because I have low expectation from the beginning.
I thought that way when I was the 5-6th grade. Too pessimistic. My miserable experiences, e.g. selective mutism, bullying, and my father's passing, probably caused me to think that way.
(To be continued)
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