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Chapter 1 Before I Became Selectively Mute (3)
Loser Child
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[ Loser Child ]
What was worse was that I was extremely dull, slow and clumsy. Whatever I did, I was at the bottom of the class I belonged to.
All classmates clearly seemed to be cleverer, smarter, and more intelligent than me. I had an inferiority complex. I wondered why such differences existed between classmates.
[Wetted My Pants!]
What is worse is that I sometimes wetted my pants in the kindergarten! Whenever I had an accident, I loudly cried and that bothered my teacher.
There were few children who wetted their pants there. We were 5 year old children, not 2 or 3 years old. But I did many times over.
[Terrible!]
Of course, there are differences between children to some extent. Some children are bright, others are dull. But I was dull in the extreme.
I think I may have been mentally retarded. As I wrote, I couldn't utter a word until I was 3 years old.
I felt anxious about my future although I was only a child.
(To be continued)
